by Candace Navarrete

by Candace Navarrete

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Life as I know it..At Least for Now

" Roll with the Flow" has always been my motto, and as time moves on and life changes I realize how important that phrase has become. Of course there are times it doesn't apply, times when you must take a stand, and that's ok..I have no problem there :)..
Next month I will turn 57 (ugghhh), did I actually type that?)..
But truly with age comes some amount of wisdom, and I realize that I am far to busy, and need to simplify my life a bit.
With much sadness I am letting go of 'Arts a Flutter at the end of the month. I am also cutting back the amount of shows I am doing in fall/Winter. I need the time to create and enjoy it again, rather than hurriedly trying get a piece done for this that or the other thing.
As many of you know my 92 yr old Grandma, had a mild stroke.
She is doing better each day, but this has also made me realize, I need to free up my time to make more time for her. She deserves it, needs it and I am willing to do what I need to do for her.
 I also plan to spend more time "honing" my craft, reading more
and learning more..
 Family issues are getting better, and reconciling themselves..TG..as I really hate conflict, and don't do well with it. I have learned that I cannot expect people who are almost 28 yrs younger to get inside my head, and understand me, my life or my feelings...and if I'm being honest with myself, I have to say who in the hell has that kind of time?! I am a complicated person, and I accept that :)..and am fine with it. I can also sleep at night knowing I try to do the right things in life, and I can live with my decisions half ass comfortably, and I know how to apologize when I am wrong, to which I'm most grateful to my Momma for teaching me that!
 My Mother's life has changed dramatically this year, and that saddens me. I wanted her to move in with me, so I could help her, but due to certain state rules, that couldn't happen..It hurts my heart that she is living in an Extended Care Facility in Utah, when I am here in CA. My brother and I went and packed up her little house, which was no easy task..but I kept thinking how very hard it had to be for her knowing we were going thru her life, and having to decide what was important to keep and what wasn't. Not an easy job, and an emotional roller coaster for us all..
 And to end my rantings on a happy note..LOL, I am very much looking forward to my son's wedding in CO, Oct 8th!
For all you parents/grandparents out there whose kids are living far from you...Skype is the most awesome program, and you must get it! Since my son and I both have laptops, we can see each other and talk. He sits my 2 1/2 yr old grandson on his lap
and we talk...So this Grandma's fear of her Grandchild forgetting his CA grandparents is put to rest! It just makes my day!
Candy

2 comments:

Diane MacNaughtan * Dianie Mac * said...

Candy, as I read your post it was so beautifully written. You are full of wisdom, but I know that acquiring that wisdom, one goes through some pain.
Your kindness and wisdom has sure helped me over the past few months.

my sister in law uses skype when her daughter and grandchild moved to Florida. It is so cool!!

take care,
~Diane

HowlingMoonDesigns said...

Hi Diane :)...
Thank you for the kind, sweet words..I wished you and I lived closer to each other, I'm sure we would become friends..FAST..LOL
The thing about pain..is it lets us know we are alive :)!
Big Hugs,
Candy